Mama I will sit in the dark with you
I know your pain because I have been there
I know there are no words to make this better
You can’t hear them right now
You feel as your baby is being taking away from you , and all your hopes and dreams are shattered in one big swoop . With one word
It is heart breaking
Do not let anyone tell you it is not okay to feel this way
You own those feelings , this grief it comes from a place of love
I will tell you this though that is still your baby and you will love em more than ever. Don’t worry mama that will never change
But you will change , it will take time to get your bearings and that is okay. You come back stronger and fiercer than you ever imagined
I will not lie, it can be a really hard life. You need people to sit with you in the dark, people who understand the pain , the worry but also the joy and triumphs
Things will look different than you thought , things will bring you to your knees , but you will
Also experience more love and appreciation for things you don’t even think twice about now
You will need help , please take it you can not do it all
And I will tell you this ,
Your child has no limits , no one can see into the future , Always keep hope and faith at arms reach they will get you through your darkest hours.
Forgive yourself often, we all have moments of weakness , do not feel guilty about your feelings
Process them and move on.
I will be here and so will many mamas who have walked this life before you.
When you are overwhelmed , when you hit rock bottom I will sit in the dark with you and listen , no judgements , no platitudes
Sometimes you need to sit with your feelings the grief, the anger, and the sadness .
Tomorrow will always bring a new day
An opportunity to stand up and try again
It is hard but there will be joy , there will be love and there will be laughter
So much laughter
Do not sit in the dark alone, it will be your instinct but trust me when I say you don’t have to walk this path alone.
Autism adventures with Alyssa 