To my beautiful daughter

As I sit here and watch you try to answer questions, I can see how hard you are trying. It makes my heart ache seeing how hard it is for you, a task that should take such minimal effort. At the same time, to hear you answer with such pride and confidence when you are understood and correct it fills my heart up and I can’t help but to smile.

I am filling out a questionnaire an endless one it seems,all about what you can and can’t do. I have grown pretty thick skin over the years, but there is something about these questions that really irritate me. I find myself writing notes on the side.

See they can’t capture the real picture of you.

They can’t see your heart, your smile, the way you brighten everything around you

I am fiercely protective of you even on paper. Never is not an answer I associate with you. Never seems so negative, so final. So I will continue to write notes to explain, even though it is strictly multiple choice.

Never was used a lot in the beginning of our journey

I was told that you probably never Use a fork, or the toilet. That you would never understand words or speak them just to name a few.

Don’t worry, mama never believed them

I always believed in you and I always will. I will never stop fighting for you, pushing you, or teaching you.

Things look different than I thought they would and it’s okay, because baby you are not less, you are so much more.

More Love, more smiles and more laughter than I could ever imagine. You could even say you are a little extra.

I say extraordinary

You amaze me every single day. You never give up. You are learning and growing in so many different ways and I will be right here beside you to support and help you in every way I can.

I am so lucky to be your mom.

I love you to the moon and back and always will

Love always,
Mama

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